Sun, 24 Jul 2005

Christmas in July

"Happiness is not the goal of life.......Character is."

Ain't that the truth. Hey there everybody. I saw that quote on a church sign the other day and thought how true it was.

Just thought I'd take a minute and give a quick update on Garrett and I. We're hanging in there. I attached a couple cute photos from this month of him. We spent some time at the cemetery on the 4th of July doing "party poppers" and having a picnic. The other picture is from the backyard after he's been swimming, eating peas from the garden and playing. We're finishing up swimming lessons this week. Peas are now done in the garden but raspberries have come and tomatoes are almost ready.

I can't believe I'm almost at the 6 month mark since Jade died. Hard to believe. I think we're doing ok all things considered. It's kind of like living with a constant toothache or back problems. It hurts but you learn to live with it. The heartache and day to day life have to co-exist.

Jade always started listening to Christmas music in August and I always started in July - - kind of scary the two freaks of the world found each other, huh. So, I started a couple weeks ago. I put in the CD Jade and I made last year of our favorite Christmas songs. It was about as rough as I figured it'd be. Sobbed through it all but have since listened to it a few more times and it's ok. Although leaving the cemetery tonite, "O Holy Night" was playing. I had told Jade regardless of the time of year I died I wanted it played at my funeral and he said, "Good idea - think I'll steal it from ya." (For those of you who were at the service you know the story and heard his sister sing it beautifully.) That was emotional leaving the cemetery tonite.

"O Holy night, the stars are brightly shining
It is the night of our dear Savior's birth
Long lay the world in sin and error pining
Til He appeared and the soul felt it's worth
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn
Fall on your knees

O hear the angel voices
O night divine!
O night when Christ was born
O night divine!
O night, O night divine!"
Have a good July. It's going fast. Thanks for your love, kindness and friendship. We are so lucky to have such amazing friends and family members. Put on some Christmas music and eat an ice cream sandwich. Makes for a great summer night.

Merry Christmas in July......................

Love .................... Tanya