Wed, 04 May 2005

Kite in the Ocean

"Either you decide to stay in the shallow end of the pool or you go out in the ocean."
-Christopher Reeve

Hey there. I had a couple people email this last week wondering how Garrett and I were doing so I thought I'd send a short note. (I'm sure there are plenty of you sick of this saga, so feel free to delete or block my emails!) All in all, we're doing ok. I have tried to establish our routine and it's going pretty well. Garrett loves some of our weekly adventures (library visits/story time, play dates with friends) and other activities as the weather cooperates (zoo, parks, etc.) I still do my neighborhood Book Club and a couple things like that a month for me which is good. I'm hoping to get us into a mom/toddler swim class this summer and other fun things as spring starts to turn into summer. Per the typical Utah spring, it was warm and windy today before the cold, rainy storm hits tmrw. We took advantage of it though to fly our new Scooby-Doo kite. It was fun.

Are there moments? Of course. There's always moments which are rough. I do remind myself though that everybody has those moments in their life regardless of what the individual circumstances are. Garrett and I still go to the cemetery a couple times a week. Just when I think I've done so well keeping in all together and afloat the last three months, I realize I get to do all this without Jade for fifty to sixty years. That's one of those moments that makes it feel like forever until I can see him again.

I like the beginning quote from Christopher Reeve. I read an article about his wife/widow, Dana, this weekend and she commented how Christopher used to say (half in jest and half seriously) "Don't you miss our old shallow life?" When I read it, I laughed to myself. Yes, there are moments when I miss my old shallow, less-evolved life. Sigh. But I know that's not the purpose of life.

"Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there." - Will Rogers

Thanks for the continued love and support. We're hanging in there; but the standard line I tell everybody is, I'm just too stupid to know what else to do. I don't know a single soul who has an easy, painfree life without some headaches or heartaches. So, we're hanging in there just as you're hanging in there too. Take care and look for the Scooby-Doo kite......

Love ya ............................ Tanya and co.