Thu,
11 Nov 2004
Not
Sure
Hey
everybody. It's Thurs and Garrett's in bed so I wanted
to dash off a quick update. Jade did ok all things
considered last week through chemo and has had this
week as his off week. The new pain killer he was put
on helped with the cramps and slowing of his digestion
but we still have the lovely diarrhea issue. Jade
is thrilled to not have the awful abdominal cramps
and hasn't thrown up in a week either so he's trying
to be a good sport about the diarrhea.
We've had a nice week off of chemo. We actually went
up to our favorite Bed and Breakfast Inn in Logan
and had a wonderful overnight getaway. We love Cache
Valley and had fun eating Aggie Ice Cream and walking
through big, crunchy, fallen, autumn leaves. It rained
today but it was great to be out of Dodge anyway.
Jade wasn't suppose to have a CT scan until Mon the
29th of Nov but he's been having a fair amount of
pain that he can't identify and of course you mind
always goes to, "Is this the beginning of the
end?" The mind games with cancer are extraordinary.
(Especially for some of us who are feeble-minded.)
So, we're doing a CT scan late tmrw (Fri the 12th)
but won't have results until late Mon or early Tues.
I guess you want to make sure you're making appropriate
decisions based on current information so you don't
waste precious time. I actually saw this quote today
which put it far more eloquently:
"Rowing harder doesn't help if the boat is headed
in the wrong direction."
- Kenichi Ohmae
So, we'll see. Some days I wish I had a crystal ball
and other days I think I'd smash it and just live
life without knowing. (Not that God has given me the
option of choosing the crystal ball or not.......just
daydreaming about it.) The other quote I bumped into
today was:
"Because a thing seems difficult for you, do
not think it impossible for anyone to accomplish."
- Marcus Aurelius
I guess I just need to keep reminding myself to trust
God and know with Him, nothing is impossible. Some
days it just feels like swimming in pea soup but He
always knows.
Enough rambling. I live in fear of these emails sounding
like "Deep Thoughts" by Jack Handy from
Saturday Night Live, but obviously not as funny! We'll
get you info about the CT scan and what chemo Jade
will be doing for the next two weeks (which is actually
eight days rather than ten since they're closed Thurs
and Fri of next week for Thanksgiving.) Thanks for
your prayers, continued faith and encouragement. What
great friends and family we have! You're awesome!
Hang in there and Go Utes!
Oh, and Happy Veteran's Day to all our vets!
Love...........................Tanya and co.
